Just a place holder...

I've decided

2008-11-23T00:08:17Z

This is going to be my random shit talking blog. A way to vent I haven't utilized in years. I'll have to purge and lock this down when I'm I have the time. I am NOT lacking in ideas to write about!

So I used to fraction things off...

2008-07-22T10:46:30Z

Amongst all the blogs I'm on. So here's something random just for LJ.

ricecakes619 @ 2008-02-12T03:21:00

2008-02-12T12:29:51Z

HighRol NP: i think.... i really need to start thinking about what i want to do... sometimes i think i'm just distracting myself, and sometimes i think i'm scared...
Lily92182: exactly. i feel like u want something or u dont want something, and u use all this stuff to "distract" urself from doing what u should or want to do

That's from a conversation I had back in 2002.

I've been frustrated lately, but have been able to channel that energy into being productive but at 3am in this large building all alone with the lights down low... demotivation hit.

I went on a nostalgic tangent as a distraction and found the above quote. I'm at a point in my life where I my self understanding and sense of idenity is at its strongest. I've also outdone all of the intangible goals my previous self has set for me.

Physically I don't appear to have changed much at all and that's what upsets me the most.

I have no idea why...

2008-01-11T12:29:08Z

No matter what time I sleep I wake up at 4am. Or I can stay up past 4am and sleep for 12 hours. Weird. I'm chalking this up to switching from a 4am baking schedule to a go home at 2am night librarian schedule. That and having endured 9pm to 7am shifts about two weeks ago doesn't help. It's just strange going to sleep and then having this sudden burst of awakeness at 4am. Maybe I'll be able to sleep at 5am. Who knows!

Here’s where I work

2008-01-08T07:43:58Z

Here at USD they call the Hill Reading Room the Harry Potter Room. You can't tell too much by this overhead shot but all the wood furniture does look like right out of a Harry Potter set!

This got me thinking about the libraries of the big 3 universites...

more here!

I usually don't give away these type of secrets...

2008-01-04T01:17:27Z

I write about one of the tools I use to track my network here:

http://richandcreamytheblog.blogspot.com/

Google Me!

2008-01-02T04:16:38Z

As Melodie pointed out earlier you can google rich and creamy and I'm result number 1!!!!

Go do it! You can see all the recipes I beat like hot chocolate and fruit smoothies.
When people look at me funny when I say Rich and Creamy you can't deny I stole the name from food advertisers.

Some how I need to get www.berichandcreamy.com and http://richandcreamytheblog.blogspot.com/ right there with my myspace profile.

ricecakes619 @ 2007-12-31T00:02:00

2007-12-31T08:04:12Z

2007 The Mirror Year

It's funny how at the end of 2006 I ended up doing the exact opposite of everything I had planned. It turned out to work better that way staying in the country, going back to school, and not going into semi-retirement.

I'm going to do some over the top blog over viewing the year. There are many moments that I'll carry around till the next centuary, and many lessons too. I must say that before and after july 4th the year was an exact inverse of each half. The ups and downs, even the money I was making was reflected.

I never had a year where I can look back and appreciate every hardship and struggle till 2007. 2008 is also the year I'm looking forward to with the most optimisim. Such a unique time in my life <3

In other news my website is up! www.berichandcreamy.com and the company blog! http://richandcreamytheblog.blogspot.com/

7 years till I had an online presence that I'm happy with. 7 damn years!

Damn it eye.

2007-12-31T07:51:50Z

Ok I'm back. Just for you haha.

ricecakes619 @ 2007-12-06T05:05:00

2007-12-06T13:06:04Z

P.S.

Found this randomly... "there is no I in threesome" hahahaa

ricecakes619 @ 2007-12-06T04:58:00

2007-12-06T12:59:19Z

Eye brought me back here.

Wow... I'm such a different person since I last left this. I'll have to update this soon.

ricecakes619 @ 2005-03-02T10:47:00

2005-03-02T18:50:23Z

dear livejournal,

I hate you more than ever!

Sincerely,
Richie

P.S. Xanga for life!

ricecakes619 @ 2005-02-16T15:15:00

2005-02-16T23:20:04Z

As much of a trend it is I never planned on becoming a Twixter...

I feel like such a below mediocre ass hat.

Heres a draft of my reslutions i never finished but hey every year is just another work in progress.

New years resolutions:
1. Follow the mantra there's a difference between planning and applying
2. More love for the la/oc people
3. Go to nor cal
4. Go to the east coast
5. Go to a massive
6. Make more than an entry level lawyer
7. Complete the HP
8. Out do my birthday and new years
9. Give more gifts
10. Love more people like I've never been hurt before
11. Take and organize more pictures
12. Double the number of contacts in my phone book from 500 to 1,000
13 don't use smoking as a crutch
14. Do more of the things I've always wanted to do even if its by myself.
15. read more books
16. Go hot tubing more and invite friends.
17. I'll never miss a birthday I know about somehow
18. I won't be too busy to say hi or to send a thank you call.
19. Back up all email adresses for master list

I can cross off going to nor cal at least....

ricecakes619 @ 2005-02-11T14:59:00

2005-02-11T22:59:10Z

Not all the ramifications of following my ultimatiums have happened but it's fun to pretend it did.

ricecakes619 @ 2005-02-03T01:11:00

2005-02-03T09:12:05Z

i've found an interesting pair of lips.

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-29T12:17:00

2005-01-29T21:46:11Z

One day you told me you trusted me with your life, now you can't trust me to have a plan? Of all the times I would be a shoulder to cry on you wont cut me any slack? You really think calling me and telling me your business would motivate me to work harder? Do you remeber anything I've said? Or do I need to repeat myself?

Grandfathers Diagnosis: Diyalisis, Low Fever, Low Blood Pressure, Hernia, Pnumonia, Leukemia, Dopamine, Morphine, 3 Antibiotics, Do Not Operate, Do Not Sedate, Do Not Resuscitate.

I was in a line of cars and a red light cut some of us off. I pulled over to the drive in part of a parking lot to a closed sears and flashed my hazards so people could see me. I was out of the street but got pulled over for blocking the traffic. I got a ticket, had to step out of the car and put my hands up, and got searched. I know how it is when I'm following someone and they lose me or are not considerate that people are following them. I can toss out dozens of examples where being who I am or standing up for what I think is right just knocks me down. I remeber when I decided to keep being myself in a selfish world. It's getting tough and selfishness feels so good at times.

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-26T00:35:00

2005-01-26T08:35:36Z

All my fears confirmed in 2 days.

I think... I think I'll try to sleep this off and pretend nothing happened for now, even though it will be boiling just underneath the surface. Maybe I'm like the sun sometimes I start to flare when things get to hot. People like to say its not worth worrying about, I like to say this is resounds deeper in my feelings despite my best efforts to stem the flow of flare into space. I radiated till the wall caved in.

Was an unfair trade made? 4 hours sucked out of my life. It's sad. Everyday hours go by and without a means to claim them for any good use. I'm forced into failure everyday when I"m robbed.

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-21T22:52:00

2005-01-22T07:00:12Z

I don't think my grandfather will make it through this semester.

I know i make it look like i'm unphased by it all. I'm just a stoic person. It's been hard and i haven't been up to the expectations I've set for myself and the things I promised I would do.

But I'm still committed.

Just please help me.

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-18T12:33:00

2005-01-18T20:34:17Z

WHAT is LOVE?
"One day, Plato asked his teacher, “What is love? How can I find it?”

His teacher answered, “There is a vast wheat field in front. Walk forward without turning back, and pick only one stalk. If you find the most magnificent stalk, then you have found love.”

Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with empty hands, having picked nothing. His teacher asked, “Why did you not pick any stalk?” Plato answered, “Because I could only pick once, and yet I could not turn back. I did find the most magnificent stalk, but did not know if there were any better ones ahead, so I did not pick
it. As I walked further, the stalks that I saw were not as good as the earlier one, so I did not pick any in the end.

His teacher then said, ”And that is love.“

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-17T09:42:00

2005-01-17T18:38:25Z

KARMA! stop fronting like you think you're fair.

First it was me vs. destiny

now its me vs. karma

Fuck the world if it wants to see me fail.

I love the people I care about too much to see that happen.

I'm sorry... I won't be updating for a long time after this too. It almost seems like there is no way for me to catch up under the avalanche of work I'm buried under and I only have 2 off days this week. I have 5 cans of Nitro 2 GO.

I dare you to throw your best at me karma. I feel like I've finaly taken control of my destiny, lets see you try to destroy my dreams at this point........

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-10T20:53:00

2005-01-11T05:50:02Z

Begining today I'll be off LJ, Xanga, Myspace, Findapix, Firendster, Friendments, Funhi, Blogger, and any other social software/blog service I've failed to mention for the next 2-3 weeks. I will however still be on aim email and reachable by cell phone but not 24/7. Work is being stricter on its personal electronics and internet policies. There is also a pressing need for me to restructure my time because if I fail to complete the goals I have set for winter break it will be detremential for the entire year, APSA, RNC, and the rest of the projects or organizations I am involved in. My grandfather just had a heart attack from a blockage in his left aorta and I'll be visiting the him in the ICU as well as dealing with family flying in from ethiopia, the philippines, and the rest of the world.

I'll come back with a small novella of life experiences... I promise!

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-10T10:26:00

2005-01-10T18:26:53Z

Yeah so i owe my blogs a 3 page update and some video/picture updates...

Instead i just copied what some of my friends wrote. I've learned the 2nd half the 1st half applies to some people out there and worth repeating.

A. guys are infatuated by independent girls but they have trouble dating independent girls because:
1. independent girls challenge their male ego
2. independent girls make them feel inferior
3. independent girls make them feel less masculine
4. they are not confident enough to date independent girls who are
a. outspoken
b. honest in that they dont try to be "cute" or "nice for the sake of it"
c. individualistic
d. capable to do many things herself

B. friendships change and you just can't do anything about it
1. in the case of you changing
a. learn and evolve into a person that you are comfortable with
2. in the case of your friend changing
a. be honest with them
b. accept them for who they are
c. if they are doing things you dont approve
i. they should know where you stand
ii. dont cast them away
iii. if they think you are judging them unfairly then it's a sign that you're paths are diverging

I don't see how one of the people who participated feels like she regressed. Maybe we all forget our lifes lessons at times. Everything that I've learned is just me finaly living all the advice I've ever been given.

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-09T22:05:00

2005-01-10T06:06:20Z

I've lived enough in 10 days to last an entire year... can i sleep till 06?

"Its like a furniture commercial where you don't pay till 2007!"

ricecakes619 @ 2005-01-06T05:22:00

2005-01-06T13:25:22Z

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The way of the money
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Not only did I get to kick it with the publisher of http://www.hyphenmagazine.com/ but i parted ways with a lesson in the way of the money.

Damn that was so much fun! and someone made a new friend ;) hahahaha

so many money moments this night, i can't remeber half the fun lol

ANYWAYS I will be meditating on the way of the money on the 6,7 and 8th I will get back to ya'll shortly.

Nice...

2005-01-04T21:13:15Z

Nice...
Originally uploaded by ricecakes619.

New Years and tinkering with new blogging tools.

Feel special LJer's this dosen't work on xanga!

But the one true blog will come back...